Everyone is looking to her for direction.... And for the first time in her life, she doesn't know what to say.
There isn't enough training in the world, to prepare you for what love takes. Because, we are all ready, for smiles and laughter and accepting of peace and tranquility... But, we are not ready for rejection and we are not ready for change.
She's begins to evaluate her life, on different levels and she's sure, that this is not what life should be. She is the giver, not quick to receive. And nothing, is right. Nothing, feels real. How can you be surrounded by so many people, yet feel so alone?
She wonders, if anyone knows her favorite color. Who are her best-friends? What does she like, to eat? What is her favorite movie?
Unwilling to ask a soul, considering the great probability that no one would know... She sits, exposed by the truth, naked, yet still unseen.
Not knowingly, she had pushed everyone away. She had shielded her heart, so heavily that she had also covered, her true self. Only she knew, her potential. She hadn't allowed anyone else, a chance to get to know her.
And the world, outside of her world... Is A Scary Place to Be. in her world, there is no follow through. There is no schedule. Things, just happen. In the real world, consistency is appreciated. In her world, loyalty is scarce.
She inhales, deeply and realizes that for the first time, in a long time... She is alone.
