Heart-Break Kid (Just Playin Around)

Aye yo they call me tha Heart-Break Kid
But what's not understood is that I've been broken more than what I did
I've been used and abused (literally)
And yet I'm talked about as if I did that ish to me

I loved him, yeah so I did - I admit it
But what was the reason you took it for granted?
Sometimes I feel like my heart has been grinded
Cause fools rush into my life and nevermind it

And then the questions begin to flow...
Was I too nice? Is it me? Am I just someone that's suppose to be hurt?
Should I not love? Should I cheat? Should I even put in the work?
Dag yo, this nicca left me broke

They call me the Heart-Break Kid cause I don't care
Cause my heart, on my sleeves I wear
Cause I refuse to be used and abused
And you tellin me sooner or later I need to chose?

The choice is mine when i feel like it or forget it
I run this show - Lights, Camera..... Where's your ticket
Im young, so what, Yo, I love bein single
Aye, I'm just here to shake hands, kiss babies, and mingle

Yo, they call me the Heart-Break Kid
Yeah they do, cause long as you keep me entertained I wont get tired of you
But soon as you lose my interest, I'm like baby we are through
What's funny is I let you know how I am before you join the ZOO

Aaaaah I guess I'm Tha Heart-Break Kid den
I accept it
I'm laughin right now, cause I know I rep it
It's written all over my face, I shows no mercy
And my heart-breaks flow like water, No rehearsing

IT'S OVA!!!

Call me cowardly if you must, but this is something I must do
You wont accept my calls, trying to avoid the truth
Unfortunately my luv, the consequence is on you
I wont waist much time on this, You knew that it was coming
Open up your ears Hunnie, I have to tell you something
This relationship is over, Please do not try calling
I did just block your number, And there's no use bawling
And get up off yo knees nicca, I don't need you crawling
Your stuff is already on it's way, Oh and you're paying for the hauling
Dag, that was harsh - Well, you should've answered your phone
If you'd taken this like a real man, we could have righted the wrong
But here we are again, for you- a sad song
Short but sweet,

Nucca Leave Me, Cause I'm Gone

Daddy

What is a gyrl without a Daddy?
A very strong woman if she wants to be.
Not a lady, missing a piece of herself
Not a little girl destined to abuse her womanly body
She can be everything a Daddy could never make her
Successful, Brilliant, Beautiful, Healthy, Loving, Giving.... and more

What is a gyrl without a Daddy?
A very happy woman if she wants to be.
Not disfunctional
Not ignorant
Not selfish
Not someone who can't love
She can have a family
She can Love a man
She can respect herself

What is a gyrl without a Daddy?
A miracle
Not a mistake
Not a bastard
Not destined to fail
She's a successor
She's someone who will try harder than anyone else to succeed
Not a statistic
Not a symbol

Intelligent guys, not stupid
Powerful ladies, not weak

What the frick is a GYRL WITHOUT A DADDY?

THAT FRICKIN GYRL IS ME!!!!

TO BE CONTINUED..........

Dirty Laundry

I could air your dirty laundry but I wont
All those secrets that you told me, I could lay out to dry
I could smash your dreams if I felt like it
But I'm not that kind of gyrl
I could tell everyone how fake you are
How you've created this image that doesn't exist
How you've manipulated your way into "Thee Crowd"
How as unsure as you are, you act proud
How tuff you seem, but behind the scenes - A Punk U Are
That would be mean

I could air your dirty draws but I aint
Instead, a tainted picture I'll paint
Cause I can't stand fake
And keepin your frickin secrets make my head ache
Some BS I just can't take
Some friends I wish I did not make
It's crazy cause you lookin at me like you've been betrayed
Nicca you walked into my life and I'm the one got sprayed
I'm the one got tricked up
You had me thinkin you were real
But now it's time to tell you how I feel.......

Creation is stimulation, but only when you're original
Authenticity isn't something you earn, it's something you learn
You're not born with it, we're all average moes
But as you get older, it's something that grows
And to people around you, it's something that shows
The right to be in my circle- It's a gift
The words I speak into your life are to uplift
You've taken me for a ride and I'm pissed
I'm sorry my love you must get dissed

Stop trynna write like me, it aint happenin
Your lame name rhymes are yesterday
Stop trynna walk like me, talk like me
If you wanna be me, pay me, cause the steez you see - This ish aint free
There's a price you pay for AUTHENTICITY

Well, back to Dirty Laundry - Should I air it?
Well I guess I just did
But I'm not gonna put your name in this
I'm too classy for that
But here's your final warning: TRICK STEP BACK

I Love Her, But I Wont Love Her To Death

I lost my mom
No, She didn't die
Just dead to me
And I don't mean that to be mean
I mean I love her, she just doesn't love me
Or does she?
she left me and she didn't look back
She turned away and it seemed so easy for her
To choose drugs over me
I've cried for 24yrs 11months and 2days
I've been missing something
But after 25, I wont cry nomore
My eyes are tired
My heart is heavy
I wanna Help, boy wouldn't she like that
My money is the only thing she likes about me
I wanted to make her proud, but I just couldn't be like her
I don't like what drugs do to you mom
I don't like the person you are, cause I know the person you could be
I'm ashamed of you
I pretend that my mom is someone else
I don't like you to come around
I feel the need to dress you up and make you someone you're not
But you're a druggie and I gotta face that
You're a drunk
And I just wanna help
I just want you to hug me........
Even though you let him hurt me
I still love you!!!
So why don't you love me?
Why do you only love what I can do for you?
Why can't we shop together?
Why can't I call you when I need a mom?
Why did I have to suffer because you were an idiot!?!
I'm sorry mom, I didn't mean that
I just get so mad becasue I love you so much that I hate myself sometimes
So I guess this is it
I'll be 25 soon and I don't plan to cry anymore
I guess I gotta let you go
And it hurts so bad, but I gotta do it
Cause all you think I can offer you is money and I know that will kill you
Mommy I gotta say goodbye,
Cause I love you, But I will not love you to death......

Letting Go Of The Past

I realize that in order to move forward, I must let go of the past
It's hard when you been hurt so much, but eventually you'll find yourself at last
Forgiving a is must, but you'll never forget the events
But unless you ask, you may also never know the intents
Some people don't mean to hurt you, some people can't help themselves
Sometimes you'll be played like a toy and then stuck back up on a shelf
It's life, and that's exactly why you have to move on
No one is immune to being hurt or being wronged
I learned that the hard way, after I cried my eyes dry
After countless nights without sleep and asking God why
I'd blame myself for others mistakes cause I didn't have an answer
Made myself think that I was the problem, It plagued me like cancer
It deseased me, sickened me, almost claimed my life but instead
Something visited me one lonely night while I layed in bed
It was reality telling me that it was time to move on
It was time to pick up my pride, lift my head and sing my song
So I did and here I am as fearless as can be
Some call me cocky, conceded, stuck-up, but I'm just happy with me
I love my flaws and the mistakes I've made, no one can do make them like me
I have to go, but you haven't heard the last of S-C-H-Y-E

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