A Scare

When I opened my eyes, things were different
I had only been asleep for an hour, but it felt like forever
The air smelled different
Voices sounded different
People and things looked different

There was a terrible pain in my head
It seems that I had forgotten what pain felt like when I was asleep
There were a lot of bright lights when I woke up
And all I remember thinking was, I'm still alive.
Six weeks prior, I was worried that I might have cancer and now all I have is a headache
I think I can live with a headache

I couldn't stop thinking about the fact that my eyes were opened
I couldn't stop thinking about how I had made it through
I was so scared going in that I was actually writing up my WILL
Well, I wanted to have my affairs in order
I was so paranoid, wow
It just seemed like forever waiting til the day and then here it was

I kissed everyone I loved
I cleaned my house til you could see yourself in the paint on the walls
I was worried, but not fearful
And then a calm came over me
It was unlike any calm I had ever known
My spirit was at peace... Or maybe it was the anesthesia

Maybe it was GOD telling me it was gonna be alright
Maybe I knew that GOD would take care of me the whole time
What I'm sure of, is that when I woke up I was different
My outlook on life had changed
My dreams were bigger and better
I was much more determined

Determined........
Much more so to not let anyone ever again tell me that I couldn't have what I wanted
To not let anyone ever again step on my dream
Determined to smile more, to laugh more
To love more
Determined to take care of and love me more

I was given a testimony, a chance, a glance at a better life

I am 25 and I am TUMOR FREE

Thank GOD for the life he's given me