Lost

I'm lost...
Lost beyond my greatest fears
Blinded by false hopes and dreams
Tested over and over again and failing
I've tried so hard to fit in that I've sinned
I've hurt myself again

I'm lost...
Drowned in my own intelligence
Intellectually suffocated
Psychologically psyched out by my own diagnosis
Enclosed in a web of lies
I've hung myself to dry, and I'm drenched

I'm lost...
Dancing to a tune that no one else hears
Skating on unfrozen ice
Flying in a plain with no windows or doors or fuel
Riding shotgun in a crash-dummy car

I'm lost,
Because somewhere along the way I let go of his hand
Because somewhere along the way I started thinking for myself
Because somewhere along the way I became disobedient
Because somewhere along the way I got sidetracked
Because somewhere along the way I let someone else start calling the shots

I'm lost...
But for how long
Only I can determine that