January 28, 2010
January 25, 2010
January 24, 2010
January 22, 2010
Untitled (A Torn Thought)
I remember especially how you tried to waste me
Threw me to the ground and tried to disgrace me
Covered my mouth and tried to deface me
All I could think is you must have hated me
What would make you so angry that you had to take me
To a place I didn't know, Why did you misplace me
Then like my life was written in pencil, tried to erase me
With anger from deep inside, I began to hate thee
You made me feel things that I had never felt
From my soul I cried out and there still was no help
You made me regret all the dealings I'd dealt,
That had brought me to where we were
Like it was my fault that you took my very smile
Wiped it away and threw it for miles
Took away my child, a woman I became
Unknowing to me how to play that game
Unready I was, as you stripped me in shame
Leaving my heart tattered and untamed
My mind was racing as you looked into my eyes
Like you wanted me to see into your soul without surprise
As if to tell me that I should have known that you were all lies
And as if preparing me for my own demise
It hurt me.......... to know that this would end a part of me
It scared me to think of the part that it would start
And as I layed there suffering and screaming inside
I could feel my heart's last beat as it shattered and died...
Cont.....
Threw me to the ground and tried to disgrace me
Covered my mouth and tried to deface me
All I could think is you must have hated me
What would make you so angry that you had to take me
To a place I didn't know, Why did you misplace me
Then like my life was written in pencil, tried to erase me
With anger from deep inside, I began to hate thee
You made me feel things that I had never felt
From my soul I cried out and there still was no help
You made me regret all the dealings I'd dealt,
That had brought me to where we were
Like it was my fault that you took my very smile
Wiped it away and threw it for miles
Took away my child, a woman I became
Unknowing to me how to play that game
Unready I was, as you stripped me in shame
Leaving my heart tattered and untamed
My mind was racing as you looked into my eyes
Like you wanted me to see into your soul without surprise
As if to tell me that I should have known that you were all lies
And as if preparing me for my own demise
It hurt me.......... to know that this would end a part of me
It scared me to think of the part that it would start
And as I layed there suffering and screaming inside
I could feel my heart's last beat as it shattered and died...
Cont.....
January 19, 2010
O To Luv GlobalGrind
What would I do without GlobalGrind
I might just crumble and lose my mind
Like a calm rainy day or a nice red wine
O how I love my GlobalGrind
I try sometimes to reject the net
I stay off Myspace, but you best bet
If I aint Tweetin, Please know that
GlobalGrind is where I'm at
Long days at work, my mind is feinin
Legs are shakin, Heart is screamin
Watchin the clock, and almost dreamin
Can't wait to see what Da Grind is streamin
Racin home, I'm in my car
Keep my lappy with me so I aint far
From the Grind and from my Stars
Gettin ghetto wit it, "GlobalGrind is who I ARE"
They keep me on the edge of my seat
And they stay current with every beat
The news is HOTT, there's no defeat
(whispers) And they'll let you know who's between the sheets
But don't get me wrong, They're never trashy
That's why I like em, They keeps it classy
If you wanna know what's up with Da Grind, just ask me
Cause I rep em, GlobalGrind 4 Life - That's love see
I'm trynna think of when I last watched the news
Watchin the news is like singin the blues
But with GlobalGrind you can never lose
You can read about any story that you so choose
They'll keep you up on current events
They'll even keep you posted on 50Cent
You can always feel good about a good time spent
With GlobalGrind it's about where you goin, not where you went
What would I do without GlobalGrind
If I'm ever lost, I will surely find
A story that will intrigue my mind
A site built for me and in perfect design
Sittin back chillin, sippin some tea
It's been days since I watched TV
And when I think about it, somehow I'm fine
Because I got my GlobalGrind
January 12, 2010
My Mind is My Freedom
Don't be mad at me, I'm only callin it how I see it
If I allow you to hurt me again then it's my bad
I can't lay open to distruction cause in the end I'll have nothing
Cause you see me vulnerable and rather than help, you take advantage
You say I dream too much
But what you don't understand is that when I'm dreaming, you can't hurt me
I can be what I want to be and explore things and places that you'll never show me
I can be free.......Inside my own head
That's why the vast majority of my time is spent in my own mind
Dreaming
Because that's where my strength is, in my head
In my mind, a place that you can't distroy
So you tried to destroy my body and you attempted to destroy my soul
But somehow I fought you off and I shielded my mind from your hold
You couldn't take it then and you can't take it now
It's my mind, filled with my likes and my opinions and you can't have it
I remember you, looking at me like I was nothing
Telling me I could be nothing, Insisting that no one would want me
But look at me, standing tall, standing free, confident
And it's not all inside my head
My mind is my freedom
Cause if I allow myself to be defined by what you tried to make me
I'd die, I'd die in my own mind and then I'd be nothing
Just like you wanted me to be
You see, it was the pain you caused that also allowed me to be free
I'm not what you thought or wanted me to be
I still have my mind..........
If I allow you to hurt me again then it's my bad
I can't lay open to distruction cause in the end I'll have nothing
Cause you see me vulnerable and rather than help, you take advantage
You say I dream too much
But what you don't understand is that when I'm dreaming, you can't hurt me
I can be what I want to be and explore things and places that you'll never show me
I can be free.......Inside my own head
That's why the vast majority of my time is spent in my own mind
Dreaming
Because that's where my strength is, in my head
In my mind, a place that you can't distroy
So you tried to destroy my body and you attempted to destroy my soul
But somehow I fought you off and I shielded my mind from your hold
You couldn't take it then and you can't take it now
It's my mind, filled with my likes and my opinions and you can't have it
I remember you, looking at me like I was nothing
Telling me I could be nothing, Insisting that no one would want me
But look at me, standing tall, standing free, confident
And it's not all inside my head
My mind is my freedom
Cause if I allow myself to be defined by what you tried to make me
I'd die, I'd die in my own mind and then I'd be nothing
Just like you wanted me to be
You see, it was the pain you caused that also allowed me to be free
I'm not what you thought or wanted me to be
I still have my mind..........
January 6, 2010
Letter To My Love
It's funny how you told me you couldn't believe I loved you
It's funny how you acted like you didn't know I care
It's funny how you look the other way when I express myself
It's funny how even today, the love for you I bear
I thought that I'd gotten over it, but here I am up late thinking
About you, the life we could have had, the love we have shared
I guess, people grow apart, they change, they move on
But I just always felt like we were an unfinished book and now I'm just torn
Or should I say torn out?
Like the page to our happy ending is missing
Not neatly separated, but ripped out any kind of way...
It's funny how you said you appreciated my Birthday call to you
How it really meant so much that I thought enough to call you on your 25th
Wow, didn't you know I wouldn't forget...
Didn't you know that date is etch-a-sketched in my mind
You'd have to really shake me up to make me forget that
It's been a long time, I thought we were "soul mates" (funny)
And another funny thing is you put our break-up off on me
You say I was too into myself and other nuccas to love you
What others? Now, loving myself - I'm guilty of
But what's funny is everyone knew I loved you but you
They knew so much that they hated me for it.........
I love you, I mean I loved you
I miss you, I mean I hope you're doing well
Sometimes I go back and forth with myself like that
Trying not to say what's in my heart, but say what i think is appropriate
Never free to say what needs to be said
I've loved you too long, ten years
And love has come along, but somehow, I couldn't love back
I feel like I've been trapped in you and where are you?
In bed with someone else Im sure of it
You haven't waited for me....
You're just like the others, only call when you need something
When you're cool, I'm Schye
When you're lonely, I'm Bae
When you're broke, I'm Booh
And my favorite, one that you haven't been until now, THIRSTY
Two years ago you clowned my Oprah mentality thinkin that I wouldn't make it
And now that you see my name in lights, you call
Funny, you call now- Yeap, same number as always
See, unlike you, I don't change - I'm all me all day
And it's a shame that you present yourself this way now
Because now I know that you're fake and I must let you go
It's not me, it's you.... I mean..... Yeah I said that right
I gotta let you go cause I love you so much
We can't be friends, because I'm still in love with you
And we can't be lovers because that wouldn't be fair to me
Oh what a tangled web we weave
Darn, I love you.....
It's funny how you acted like you didn't know I care
It's funny how you look the other way when I express myself
It's funny how even today, the love for you I bear
I thought that I'd gotten over it, but here I am up late thinking
About you, the life we could have had, the love we have shared
I guess, people grow apart, they change, they move on
But I just always felt like we were an unfinished book and now I'm just torn
Or should I say torn out?
Like the page to our happy ending is missing
Not neatly separated, but ripped out any kind of way...
It's funny how you said you appreciated my Birthday call to you
How it really meant so much that I thought enough to call you on your 25th
Wow, didn't you know I wouldn't forget...
Didn't you know that date is etch-a-sketched in my mind
You'd have to really shake me up to make me forget that
It's been a long time, I thought we were "soul mates" (funny)
And another funny thing is you put our break-up off on me
You say I was too into myself and other nuccas to love you
What others? Now, loving myself - I'm guilty of
But what's funny is everyone knew I loved you but you
They knew so much that they hated me for it.........
I love you, I mean I loved you
I miss you, I mean I hope you're doing well
Sometimes I go back and forth with myself like that
Trying not to say what's in my heart, but say what i think is appropriate
Never free to say what needs to be said
I've loved you too long, ten years
And love has come along, but somehow, I couldn't love back
I feel like I've been trapped in you and where are you?
In bed with someone else Im sure of it
You haven't waited for me....
You're just like the others, only call when you need something
When you're cool, I'm Schye
When you're lonely, I'm Bae
When you're broke, I'm Booh
And my favorite, one that you haven't been until now, THIRSTY
Two years ago you clowned my Oprah mentality thinkin that I wouldn't make it
And now that you see my name in lights, you call
Funny, you call now- Yeap, same number as always
See, unlike you, I don't change - I'm all me all day
And it's a shame that you present yourself this way now
Because now I know that you're fake and I must let you go
It's not me, it's you.... I mean..... Yeah I said that right
I gotta let you go cause I love you so much
We can't be friends, because I'm still in love with you
And we can't be lovers because that wouldn't be fair to me
Oh what a tangled web we weave
Darn, I love you.....
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