What's In A Word?

WHATS IN A WORD?

 

One of my very favorite movies is "London". Don't ask why... I'm not even sure why. Anyway, this movie is centered around Jessica Biel trying to get her boyfriend to say those three magical words (I love you). He eventually says it at the very last minute, at the end of the movie, as she's about to move away. Wow dude, REALLY? Peace out! One of my favorite scenes is when she says "I love you" continuously and he just will not say it back. He actually has the nerve to say something like, "Why does it have to be about words?" or something like that. She then replys that it is about words, because if we didn't have words we'd still be living in caves and talking with our hands. Jessica, I couldn't have said it better myself.

So, what's in a word? Why do we say "I love you"? And when we say it, what do we mean? Can it be said too much? Can it not be said enough? Can you wear it out? Well, let's say this... I've tested love and it's limitless boundaries and NO, I do not think it can be worn out (not if the person you're saying it to knows what your meaning is).



 

 

Cloudy WIth a Chance of Hope

I sat there, listening to music, realizing that the last three years of my life had been wasted... I had pushed my friends aside, put my dreams on hold and committed myself to loving a man who was not worthy of my time, my attention, my heart. Was I a fool? Was I a stupid girl? Or had I just tried too hard to be something that I am not? Either way, I was sitting there, alone, thinking to myself. Answering to myself... Wishing I could turn back time and take my life back....

But, I couldn't turn back time and the very place I had been trying to avoid was right in my face. I had been trying to make a relationship work, because I didn't want to start all over. I didn't want to get to know someone all over again. It just seemed like less work to work the kinks out of someone I already knew. But I didn't know him much more than I knew Elvis. And the things I knew about him weren't even appealing. I had created this image in my head. There was this ideal man that I knew I wanted. He would be at least 6'3", 220lbs., light skinned, athletic, business minded (a hustla), great with kids, and among many other things, 100% supportive of my dreams. Yep, there's a frickin list. This guy, this dude I had spent three years pouring myself into, was NOT that. He was nowhere near supportive. We were headed in two different directions.

Ugh, so frustrating. The more I thought about it, the more disgusted I became. I mean really, I had friends, I had goals. I had a five year plan that was going to set me up for life. Well there's two years left in that plan (that I haven't started yet), and I'm afraid I may not be able to pull it off. What had happened to me? Was I that far gone? And how in the world had I fallen so far for HIM? Rolling my eyes, smacking my lips, I jumped up off the sofa and ran to grab my laptop. I WILL NOT BE STUCK! So, sure I had a five year plan that I didn't start three years ago. I am going to start it now. It'll be a two year plan that will have me set up comfortably for at least 20  years. Can I pull that off? Oh I'm going to.

There is a light at the end of this tunnel. I see that. I realized that while I had wasted three years, there was no point in dwelling in the hurt of the situation which I could not change. Someone once told me the best way to get over someone or something, is to get even. Well I'm over him and the whole shebang, but I do like the sound of getting even. Oh imagine the jaw drop when I'm exactly where I wanna (the very place he tried to keep me from). I'm getting there. I have people around me that care about me and I'm working on my dreams. I feel good.

Colors of My Luv * Part 1

You keep tellin me you're not ready
But I keep ignoring the signs
Pushin it to the side....
Trynna put it outta my mind
I've been in love before so I think that I can master
But shyt, I thought that before and that ended in disaster
He was a bastard...
Tried to make me degrade myself
Made me hate myself
Tried to beat me down til there was nothing left
It took a lot of crawling before I could walk and gather the nerve
To say I deserve actions, cause they speak louder than words...
This is absurd
How could anyone ever abuse me
Dare to misuse me
Some people are only here to use me
I figured it out, then shielded my heart
Said I'd never let it out, but your love is like art
It consumes me, covers me like rain
Drives me insane
Makes all better the things that caused me pain.
But, you're not ready
I heard you when you told me that
Matter of fact, I knew it before I joined the pack
My feelings are exact, and everything I told you
So you have to know I'm giving you the whole truth
Never underestimate the power of my many sides
It can be a ride I know but I'm letting you decide...

K Michelle - Beauty and Talent

I would have to say that of all the artists out there right now, Miss K Michelle would have to be one of my favorites. She's definitely in my Top 5 of current female artists, and that top includes my all time favorite Miss Beyonce' of course. Now am I comparing the two? No, I'm not. I believe that K Michelle is in a league of her own. Her music speaks from the soul, which is something that can not be said about a lot of music these days. She has a beautiful sound and personality, and well umm, just being fair, she's gorgeous. I mean c'mon, does anyone else see that she has a beautiful body? I was with my man and I did a double take. IJS

If I were to break down this woman's beauty, it would take all day. So I'm just going to sum it up real quick before I get the music side of things. I mean who doesn't like a woman with a tiny waist and nice shapely hips. I mean if I were a guy, I would be like, "Heeeey Kaaaay, Wad it do?" LOL But serious, beyond a very nice body, she has a beautiful face as well. I love her smile, and the rounded cat eyes are surely God made. Uh oooh, I might have a "girl crush".

At the current moment, you can get K Michelle's "V.S.O.P" on iTunes and her long awaited debut album "Rebellious Soul" will be available August 13th, 2013. I expect a lot of smashes as I can not wait to support. K Michelle has a lot of breakout singles that I blast on the regular. Who didn't love "Kiss My Ass"? Probably the men that were kissing it. LOL But my all time favorite so far would have to be "I Just Wanna". Let's keep it real, sometimes you just want to get the feel good, without all the clingy shit. Men talk all the time about how women be #InTheirFeelings. Men get in their feelings too. (I'll go in on  that in a later post) But seriously ladies, isn't it the absolute worst when you're trying to get yours and a man is trying to make love all on you? Aaaaaaaah! My girl KM went in and straight up said, "I just wanna f*ck and not fall in love." Ding, ding, ding... We have a winner.

This is an artist that you will want to keep your eyes on as she does not disappoint. You can follow her on Twitter: @kmichelle and don't forget to support her website www.thekmichelle.com. Booking information is on her Twitter profile so go get it. And don't forget to pick up that album on August 13th.

 

 K Hunni, I love your work. Keep it up. You have my support. ;)

 

-Schye

I AM LOVE

I swore I'd never fall in love again
Like I had done something so wrong
Like I had betrayed myself
Like I had turned on my own heart

The feelings that I had for you were true, are true
Except, I don't know what I really feel anymore
I don't know if I'm comfortable feeling for you
I'm not sure if I know what I feel at all

You wanted me to be honest
But you were never honest yourself
Or is it that your honesty and my honesty are just so different
I could question that all day

I lay alone, staring at the ceiling
Wondering how I got myself in this again
This love thing that never is equal
Someone always loves more than the other

Someone always does more than the other
Gives more, says more, is more
And the other usually thinking that they are being equal
Usually receiving more, but thinking they are giving as much

One sided relationships are my specialty
Because I am always the better friend
I am always the better spouse
I am always the better lover

Daughter of misunderstanding I have been
Trying to catch myself in this race of uncertainty
Wondering how I got so far ahead of my feelings
Hoping that one day it will all come together

I am not the lover I use to be
I am not the girl you met back then
I am not the child that was born into nothing
I have grown into something much more than myself

I have grown into much more than you thought I would be
Much more than you could have ever imagined
Much more than expected of me
Much more than I can handle at times

My love is not dangerous
It is not foolish or weird
I am not doing thee most
I am not over-expressive

I am me
I am unfolding before my own eyes
I am learning the hard way
I am taking you on a journey with me

I am not in love
I am love
I am cupid with love arrows
I am valentines and chocolates

I am sweet dreams and early morning kisses
I am romantic dinners and proposals
I am holding hands and singing chords
I am secrets and bff's

I am freedom to live
I am laughter and tears
I am smiles and emoticons
I am warmth and I am sure

I AM LOVE

I do not love too hard
I am not ashamed as you are
I am not afraid of being broken
Because I am not in love, I am

I AM LOVE
 

I Love You Crazy, I'm Not In Love With You

Why are these three little words so scary? Why is it easy for some people to say them and not so easy for others? What do they really mean? So many questions surround this popular phrase. So why don't I break it down a little bit for ya.

Definitions....

love  

/ləv/

Noun An intense feeling of deep affection: "their love for their country".

Verb Feel a deep romantic or sexual attachment to (someone): "do you love me?".

Synonyms noun.   affection - fondness - darling - passion verb.   like - be fond of - fancy - adore So, when you tell someone you love them, you're not saying you want to jump their bones, be their wife/husband, bear their children or jump in front of a bullet for them. You are simply saying that you are fond of them, adore them or have an intense feeling of deep affection. Oh sure, you can also be feeling a deep romantic or sexual attachment to someone. I think that people are getting so use to having no emotional attachments, that they are literally running from the word "love". I mean take "Friends With Benefits" for example. An FWB is someone you are friends with that you screw, bang, smash... or whatever you want to call it. But this is someone you have sexual intercourse with that you have no other attachments to. Some people have this arrangement set up to fulfill their sexual desires in a somewhat safer way, since a lot of times they are only being intimate with one person. And then you the "Mains". Yes, this one is very popular. You're not my "man", you're my "main". You're my #1 Smash. Hmmm, I feel so honored. No, this means that you are among several others that are getting the goods (if their good). All I'm saying is BE SAFE! So what is the problem here? I think that there is some screw-up in communication. See, you can love someone and you can be in love with someone. I think this is where people are getting confused and running away. Me personally, if a guy told me he  loved me and I wasn't sure what he meant, I would ask. I wouldn't leave him floating in the air like a birthday balloon that got away. That's why communication is key. It is very important to open your mouth and use your voice box. But in this day and age. We don't know how to do that. So then you have "I'm in love with you". And that one is so very scary. I mean even if I were in love with someone and they told me that, I would probably sit there all stiff and silent, like (awkwaaaaard). But then that's where communication comes in. Say something darnit! If you don't feel the same, you just don't. It's not a big deal. But, "I love you" and "I'm in love with you" are two totally different feelings. I've been down both paths and I can tell you that while I love all of my friends (male) (side-eye), I AM NOT in love with any man right now. And they better know it, because I am very verbal; almost too verbal. I love you... -Schye

So Much Time To Reflect

What exactly do you say when you've been away for so long? I'm not sure. Things change with the passing of time. I've been in love, lost love and fallen all over again for an old flame. It's funny how the heart works. It's funny how a person can change in just a years time. I'm glad to be back, except I'm not back and as I use to be. I'm a whole new me and I want to share that with you (the reader).

You see, the truth is that I've been hiding... I've been hiding behind other people's view and opinion of me. I've been hiding behind others dreams and expectations of me. And you know where hiding has gotten me? Nowhere at all. I've been mentally stuck in the same place for years. All of the dreams that I have for myself have been locked away and forgotten. My clothing line at a standstill; machines, fabric, equipment locked away in storage. But that is my passion. My talents have gone to waste. My love for singing, dancing, and acting are just a memory now.

How do I get the things I've lost back? How do I move forward in my life and not be afraid?

I just woke up today and decided to move. I decided that I will not let illness or opinion stand in my way any longer. I just can't do it any more. Because the same people that are watching, judging and waiting or me to make a mistake are going on with their lives and worrying what I think about them at all.

It felt good to open my eyes this morning and feel like  could honestly care less about what the next person feels or doesn't feel about me. You can't live your entire life for everyone else. Trust me, you will lose your true self in the process. Now of course, I'm speaking generally when I say I don't care what people think. Of course there are people who's thoughts and opinions matter, but my "overall" can't be dictated by other people.

With that said, I am going to live. I am going to smile. I am going to sing and dance. I am going to make new friends. I am going to love so hard and not be afraid. And I hope you are all with me, because this will be a fun ride.

Mwah
-Schye